I've had to abandon doing Your Life at Stake at the moment. We're going to try to pick it up in the spring.

I haven't worked on my writing in forever.

I still don't have a computer and part of me is using that as an excuse but it's still my fault for not writing.

I've tried to get ahold of Matt from KVCC with no luck. I was hoping Serena and him could hang out with Melly and I sometime but I haven't talked to him since I moved, actually since I stopped having a cell.

I feel like I'm not doing anything. I work and I go to school and neither of them are that important to me. I mean, i need to work for money. And I need to go to school so that I can get a better job or atleast look qualified when I try to start my own business. I keep thinking that when I move everything will change because I'll have my room and my books and feel at home and hopefully a computer with internet and be able to work on my writing and I'll write down everything in my mind, all my script ideas that are just rough concepts I'll even write out and then it'll all be okay...

But...

But, I dunno. I pray to God at night and sometimes I think everything I'm doing is wrong. Sometimes I even think that I'm praying wrong. I know this is just some phase of my life, but this is worse than depression because this I can't get a grasp on what it is.

Well, that's all anyway, I hadn't updated in forever and thought that maybe I should.