Speaking of Kristen, have I mentioned I love her lately?

Now, for those of those persons reading this who are getting sick of me saying that (especially my girlfriend), understand that I don't necessarily love HER just what she's teaching me. She is my oracle.

Today, for instance, I learned something about Ian that I had not realized until this point (I'm pretty sure he doesn't read this so I can talk freely). You see, we are watching Joe vs the Volcano in Mythology and talking about the hero myth, and as I mentioned before the average person is too afraid to do what they truly desire. One of our discussion questions was "If you had three months to live, and money was not an issue, would you do what your passions dictate? Kristen talked of a 21 year old who was diagnosed with jaw bone cancer, had a surgery that greatly disfigured his face, have a 50/50 chance of surviving, and was joking about it before he went in. Then, a sememster before he had to gradaute from Grand Valley, he was diagnosed with cancer on the tongue, drove up to U of M on his own, got the chemo, and went into...sales...::shrugs:: it's what he wanted to do...

But Ian..Ian sleeps in until late, and just lazes about and I think it's because he's afraid to do anything. He hangs out with his friends until four in the morning, but he doesn't do anything real...I would never have thought of this before, but it hit me when Kristen said, "Joe in the movie knows he's going to die so he lives life, but most people, if they found out they only had three months to live would just curl up in a ball and give up." In a way, I think that's what Ian's done. He talks about getting a job, and he talks about finishing his homework, and he talks about maybe going to college but he hasn't done anything...

If I had three months to live...would I have the courage to do what I desire? I'd like to think so...

There are some other things i've learned today too. There is someone I know who is struggling with what they should do with their lives and they keep asking other people. There is a line in Joe vs. the Volcano in which Joe is talking to the limo driver and asks the driver what kind of clothes he should buy and the driver remarks that clothes are very important to him, that clothes make the man, and that asking what kind of clothes to buy you might as well be asking someone 'who am I?' The driver responsds by saying, "I don't know who you are. I don't want to know who you are. I spent all of my life finding out who I am, and I'm tired."